I am the Other Woman.
I have always been, and I will likely always be.
Do not pity me. Do not apologize. Do not change how you treat me.
I dont need your sympathy. The only thing I need you to do, is understand what this has done to me….
“Sorry mom, no grandkids for you!” My Mother blatantly responded, “But why not? There are plenty of guys who like you. Why don’t you have a boyfriend? Aren’t you interested in anyone?” I paused for a moment to rack my brain for a plausible reason. -No results found.- The best I could come up with was, “I just hadn’t found anyone yet.” Mom had no choice but to retreat..
I suppose my answer is mostly true, but after careful reevaluation of my love life I have come to realize that after having a conversation with a friend, and discussing every guy I’ve dated or sought after, each and every one of these males have used me as a side dish.* (**This excludes one person, who knows this comment is directed at him because I have thanked him)
I have been lied to about their relationship status all my life. Whether they have supposedly “forgotten to tell me” / intentionally kept their relationship a secret to lead me on and tried to ‘get in my pants,’ or I was aware he was in a relationship but knowing I liked him, would show interest in me just to tease me -with no intent to actually be with me-..
In fact, in both of those scenarios (and several other instances not stated here), no guy has ever had any intent to go out with me…
If you have lied and lead me on this this, please just remember that you’re slowly killing me. Please know my self-esteem and sense of worth are being flushed down the drain. And please, break my fragile heart and see if karma will be as kind to you as you have been to me..
Maybe I’m looking at this all wrong..
Who wants to be tied down to one person? Fuck this. You know? I don’t care if one is in a relationship or not! If I want ‘em and they’re willing to have a piece of me while having you too, so be it. If you women have a problem with this, deal with it. It’s not my fault you can’t control your man.. Com’on, really? Who needs to actually have a special person to call their own?
Wouldn’t that be a terrible way for me think?
What if I actually am starting to believe this?
I wish people undertsood how much it hurts. How much it destroys me to feel that I’m never good enough to be with someone, and have that person have ME be the only person they’re with.. I’m always just second best. The backup plan to your backup plan. There’s always some girl who isn’t as much of a challenge to woo. There will always be someone that is prettier or smarter than I am.
Yet when you have that person, you still try to get in my pants. Well sorry I actually CARE about reserving my virginity for someone who’s worth giving it to.
And heads up: It won’t be lost to a guy who lies to me about ‘not having a gf’ or one who doesn’t think I’m wonderful enough to be the only one they have their eyes set on..
Now here’s the flip side… :/
It has been brought to my attention (countless times) that I have a tendency to lead guys on. I am terribly sorry if you feel that you have fell victim to this. I have no intention to lead you on, it is likely that I enjoy your company but I don’t know how to discourage your liking to me. I tend to be too polite because I don’t like to hurt anyones feelings. It could be that I may enjoy your company a lot, but my real quest may just be to touch your hair! Teehee! Yay hair fetish! :D
If you are my friend, but I ”flirt” with you, it is in the most innocent of intents. I want you to know that I wish people could see the beauty in you that I see. I can’t and won’t be the only person who will ever see the wonderful things about you. Sometimes, you ought to be reminded how amazing you are.. I’m sorry if your took my compliments for flirting.
Please be mindful that I can be a very blunt person, and if I like you, you will know without a possible doubt. ^_^
Now sometimes… I think you guys need to chill the hell out! We’re all adults here. We’ve all talked to the opposite sex by now, and shown some kind of affection to somebody.. I believe we can show affection without an intent to date them. Sometimes affection is just that: Affection. NOT a green light saying, “I am flirting with you, therefore, I LOVE YOU. LET’S MAKE-OUT.”
I am a touchy person.. You have three options: You guys can either enjoy it but think nothing of it, talk and ask me about what my intentions are, or Shut the Hell Up! :D (I mean this in the most pleasant of ways)
If, by the off-chance I have lead you on, I am truly sorry, and you can personally thank my actions to the people that I have met before you..
No one deserves to feel unwanted, unloved, inferior, replacable.. and I’m so tired of feeling this way.. I am so tired of being the ‘other woman.’ I am the one who gets the guilt and the scorn. I am the one who gets hurt.
I can’t bear to feel replacable. I’ve been treated this way so long I have it engrained in my head that I am replacable. E pluribus unum. An endless cycle of women that will be better than me in your eyes.. I find it a waste of time to date or bother forming a deep bond with anyone because it’s pointless. You won’t like only me. When you give up on trying to pursue me because you can get what you want from me, just get it from someone else. THANKYOUVERYMUCH..
Please consider yourself absolutely beautiful and irreplaceable if I have ever liked you, friend or otherwise… A little piece of my heart goes out to you always, and I hope you treasure it..
If you got a piece of my heart by [my] mistake, keep it.
It’s the best you’ll ever get.
Song playing: “Don’t cha” by The Pussycat Dolls.
"Dont cha wish your gf was hott like me? Don’t cha wish your gf was a Freak, like me? Dont chaaa? ” ;D